A Daily Letter...

I am so sorry for freaking out on you and getting upset, hunny. I do love you with all my heart and I am happy as hell that I got to talk to you finally. I didn't realize how much of this week I had been repressing and how hard I had been trying this week to just not feel anything. It's easy for me to tough it out through everything and not think about how much it mentally and physically is affecting me, but when I started talking to you I could feel my face getting hot and my the walls I had built in my head to keep me safe from everything and everyone around me melt away. It was like, the more I started talking to you the more I realized how unhappy I truly feel and how stressed out this week has made me. I guess it is,  in a way, a good thing that I just feel so comfortable and safe with you that I don't have to pretend that everything is okay. That I feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable, imperfect and human.


I didn't mean to freak out on you or make you angry with me. I do love you with all my heart Corey.

God, I feel like I have been at the library forever, I cannot believe I am still awake and going right now. Thank God for food delivery and energy drinks.

Always yours,
Arielle Elyse Potter
4/30/2012
0245 AM